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The Second Arrow: The Practice
of Emotional Awareness
by Ken Jones
When afflicted with a feeling of pain those who lack inner
awareness sorrow, grieve and lament, beating their breasts
and becoming distraught. So they feel two pains, physical
and mental. It is just like being shot with an arrow, and
right afterwards being shot with a second one, so that they
feel two arrows.
Thus the Buddha explained the distinction between pain an
affliction on the one hand, and, on the other, our suffering
from painhow our experience of pain can discomfit, frustrate
or agonize us. We can see this on any hospital ward, where
the responsive of patients to much the same affliction may
vary very widely, from depression and despair to a buoyant
and inspiring good state of mind. This is an extremely important
distinction whether in helping ourselves, in offering help
to others, or in trying to do something to remedy the injustices
in the world. In the ancient practice of emotional awareness
our first step is to lean to distinguish between the two arrows
in the experiences of our own lives.
In our high-resource, high-tech culture it has become more
difficult to perceive this distinction between the two arrows
because as soon as we are discomfited we are able in most
cases to reach for some external fix to remove or alleviate
the affliction. In traditional cultures, without the quick
fix mentality, there was more opportunity to reflect on how
an affliction was experienced, and from such reflection evolved
magic and spirituality. Let us consider two present-day examples,
of a person diagnosed with cancer, and an old age pensioner
suffering from poverty. The cancer may be fixed by treatment,
but perhaps still not curable. The poverty may be reduced
by welfare payments for which the pensioner had not known
she was eligible. But in both cases the second arrow may continue
to be felt.
Suffering I teach, and the way out of sufferingwas the Buddhas
fundamental teaching. The ancient meditative practice of bare
awareness (or mindfulness) which he taught can enable us to
experience our afflictions at least so they feel less acute
and more manageable. And more, it can enable us to work with
our afflictions so that we begin the experience the whole
of life in a radically different way the way out of suffering.
For a start, we can develop a positive frame of mind for
this work by reflecting on how illogical it is for this self
to be so unique and special as to expect to be free from affliction.
We can then determine to make a transformative use of our
suffering, instead of just being a confused, complaining victim.
Once we can distinguish between the two arrows in our own
life experience we can move on to the next step. What is it
that most discomfits us or gives us pain in our life? Where
does the shoe pinch? Probably in several places, in which
case with what particular affliction do we feel able to work?
It may be something relatively small, like the annoyance caused
by the chronic untidiness of someone with whom we share a
home. Or it may be some flaw of personality which, we believe,
afflicts us. Again, it may be persistent problem in a personal
relationship. It maybe something that has for so long been
a part of our life that we need to take time to identify it
and get the feel of it.
Awareness practice is learning to open up to some such powerful
emotion without either letting it discharge itself (as anger
or self-pity, for example), or suppressing it. This, incidentally,
is not to deny that anger may be a healthy response to some
injustice out there but when angry we can often sense how
much is in fact coming from some gutsy ego frustration. This
middle way of creative containment is not easy to describe,
and harder still to do. It requires a lot of personal experimentation.
John Welwood, a transpersonal psychologist, writes of befriending
emotion which, by neither suppressing emotions nor exploring
the meaning in them, teaches us a way to feel their naked
aliveness and contain their energy.Some further explanation
from teachers in different Buddhist traditions may help to
get the measure of awareness practice. In the Theravada Buddhist
tradition, Nyanaponika Mahathera writes that by the methodical
application of Bare Attention & all the latent powers
of a non-coercive approach will gradually unfold themselves
with their beneficial results and their wide and unexpected
implications.Let yourself be in the emotion, wrote the Tibetan
Buddhist teacher Chögyam Trungpa. Go through it, give
in to it, experience it &Then the most powerful energies
become absolutely workable rather than taking you over, because
there is nothing to take over if you are not putting up any
resistance.Zen philosopher Hubert Benoit warns as follows:
If a humiliating circumstance turns up, offering me a marvellous
chance of initiation, at once my imagination strives to conjure
what appears to me to be in danger & It does everything
to restore me to that habitual state of satisfied arrogance
in which I find a transitory respite, but also the certainty
of further distress. In short, I constantly defend myself
against that which offers to save me; I fight foot by foot
to defend the very source of my unhappiness!
Pain, whether emotional or physical, can be very threatening
when we try to look it straight in the face. It is like spilling
cold water on a hot stove: the bubbles run in all directions
and turn to steam. Anything to escape ! For this reason it
may be best to begin with whatever might be our favourite
evasions of a specific discomfiture. We can begin by examining
possible evasion in terms of lifestyle, as described earlier,
like the escape into busyness or into fussy and petty preoccupations.
Next we can move in closer and try to get a taste of the inner,
psychological evasions that lie beneath what I have called
lifestyle evasions. For example, Elizabeth Kubler Ross identified
a sequence of successive attitudes to death and dying as denial,
anger, bargaining, depression, and finally acceptance.
We each have our favourite evasions when blocked, frustrated
or frightened by some circumstance that threatens our control
over our lives. In my experience, strongly masculine personalities
often fixate on my problem out thereand may find it very difficult
to get in touch with how it feels in here. Another first line
of defence is denial (Im not really ill at all!). Or we may
try to rationalise and intellectualise painful feelings (like
kidding ourselves we are not really in denial, or burying
ourselves thanks to the internet!in study and discussion
of the minutiae of our illness). Or, again, anger and frustration
may be projected onto others or the world in general (Young
people today &.). Even feeling guilty is evasive, in that
by punishing ourselves we do retain a perverse kind of control.
The same can be said of self-pity, often a final resort. Here
we are getting down to very basic emotions, stripping away
successive self-protecting layers. Anger itself, for example,
is an evasion which protects us from what we eventually discover
lies beneath it and fires it up root fear.
Always this practice is about deepening our physical awareness
of how affliction feels. What are its physical sensations?
Its colour? The taste of it? Getting in touch will be easiest
in sitting meditation, when the surface of the mind has become
still and the deeper feelings can be observed. And we may
again confront ourselves with the question; Yes, but what
does it truly and deeply feel like?
When the root fear in which our evasions originate does itself
become transparent we become that fear (or whatever it is
that is afflicting us). The self ceases to put up a resistance
and we begin to experience our affliction in a radically different
way. The self just gives up trying to sustain its illusions
(sometimes in a state of extreme despair) and is freed at
last into acceptance of the suchnessof things, of just how
it is, just how we are. Reality appears without our need to
colour and shape it, to make pictures, and hence we become
more open to other peoples realities. Indeed, it has always
been there, trying to break through to us, but obscured by
the clouds of self-protectiveness. There is here a sense of
liberative joy, of gratitude, freed of the constant strain
of trying to make our condition as we vainly desire it to
be. Note that acceptancehere signifies a positive liberation
instead of the grudging putting up with things that the word
might otherwise suggest.
Similarly the empowermentwe experience is not a self-empowerment,
but the empowerment of a universal energy that floods in when
we give up our futile attempts at self-empowerment. When all
our evasions become transparent they lose their compulsive
power. We see more clearly how to respond to our problems,
which now appear more open and manageable. And if there is
little we can do, for example, about our eventual decrepitude
and death, in that deep hearted acceptance lies liberation.
Stacking firewood
this winter evening
how simple death seems
Freed of self-preoccupation we are freed wholly to respond
to others' needs. The wisdom of bare awareness thus manifests
itself as compassion in the world. Laughter and tears mingle
when we become aware of the tragi-comedy of our unavailing
struggle to be free of this or that without being able to
see that struggle as itself the greatest of our problems.
If we work with others who are also suffering and preferably
in the same way as we arethis can, in turn, help our
own awareness practice. For example, if you suffer from loneliness
and despair then volunteer to work with the Samaritans.
When we befriend others as equals, hang out with them and
share and feel what they are going through, a wondrous chemistry
can take place. Together there grows warm and positive acceptance
of our suffering human condition, releasing a new sense of
possibility.
For Buddhists working for peace and social justice the parable
of the two arrows also has great value. The first arrow is
the underlying angst of being a vulnerable and mortal human
animal. Throughout history people have struggled fruitlessly
to fill this sense of lack by banding together by race and
gender and as clans, nations, states, social classes, ideological
movements, political parties, and a host of other groupings.
This sense of belongingness identity has been boosted by strongly
differentiating between us and them, and by projecting the
Three Fires of rage, greed and fear-driven ignorance upon
alien groups. All this tragic folly is for humankind the second
arrow. Both history and experiment have shown that this antithetical
bonding can kick in at the slightest pretext sometimes with
murderous consequences.
Buddhist activists need to summon up all their intellectual
and, especially, their emotional awareness if they are not
to be caught up in the push and pull of this process. The
analyses, theories and policies required by any movement for
social change need to be distinguished from the tendency for
these to solidify in self-affirming dogma and ideology and
their subtle variants. Similarly it is necessary to distinguish
between mutual support and the belongingness which breeds
a uniformity of outlook and erodes individual judgement.
It requires a trained emotional sensitivity to detect and
avoid these often quite subtle evasions and to sustain an
authentic spirit of inquiry and independence. Thereby we expose
ourselves to the elusive and complex nature of social realities
and must find the courage to act resolutely amidst uncertainty.
Further, it can be deeply unsettling to open with empathy
to the feelings and views of our adversaries, beyond the black-versuswhite
mentality of many people with whom we may be working.. And
when we see through what are often self-serving illusions
about the effectiveness of radical movements we then expose
ourselves to previously masked feelings of powerlessness and
frustration.
All this may precipitate a mood of despair (burn out) similar
to when we open in full awareness to some personal affliction.
And, similarly, this practice can gift us with the same calm
clarity and the same inner strength. We become more effective
as activists but also we begin to experience self and reality
in a radically new light.
The Buddhas parable of the two arrows can be found in the
Samyutta-nikaya, xxxvi.6 (the Sallatha Sutta), from which
this is a free translation
Ken Jones is a Zen practitioner and teacher of some 35 years
standing. He is Secretary of the UK Network of Engaged Buddhists
www.engagedbuddhists.org.uk
and author of The New Social Face of Buddhism, available through
Wisdom Books. His pamphlet Ageing: the Great Adventure A Buddhist
Perspective can be obtained by sending a £3.50 cheque
(made out to K. Jones) to Troedrhiwsebon, Cwmrheidol, Aberysrtwyth,
SY23 3NB. Also from this address you can obtain details of
his books of haiku and haibun (haiku prose).
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